It’s been a long road…


Ahhh, so it’s been a lot longer than a hot minute since I’ve written a blog post.  I recall writing my last post – my husband, Dan and I were getting ready to leave for our yearly week in Key West the next week and since I had much to do before I left I wanted to get an important blog post out supporting my friend and her new endeavors.  Little did I know that shortly after I returned my life would be turned upside down.

It was Memorial weekend 2018 when I received a text from my brother saying my mom had fallen. and cracked a rib and possibly broke her hip.  I didn’t rush right up to see her as I was in the middle of a bunch of things (had just got back from vacation) and so figured I’d go see her just after the weekend.  The next day I received a distress call from the same brother saying “Sherry did you get my text about mom”. My response was yes.  He proceeded:  She’s in a real lot of pain and I told them to start giving her morphine this morning – I don’t think she has long. – Me:  well he couldn’t see me but my jaw hit the floor and tears welled up in my eyes.  Now back up a bit – this is a brother I had a falling out with so we were not on speaking terms – so for him to call me was a big deal and so I knew my mom was really not doing well.  I was speechless – something that doesn’t happen to me all that often – I’m not sure if he thought I dropped the phone or what but he said:  are you there???  I simply said yes and choked up with tears he said – I’m sorry, I said ok thanks and hung up.  How?  What?  Why?  It makes no damn sense – she fell – she had some broken bones – but how could she be dying from broken bones in a day and a half???? Fear, anger, resentment, hatred, sorrow – all of it over and over again swirling inside of me as I tried to process the conversation.

And there is was, the change that shook my very existence.  The change that would change EVERYTHING.  June 4, 2018 she died – it was about 2 weeks after falling.  I was broken, shattered, pieces of me just falling over and over and over again.  Okay I was 45 and no I didn’t need my mom to raise me and look after me.  And yes she had Alzheimer’s and she was probably better off as she wasn’t suffering but wait.  I was suffering, I was hurting, I was cut to my core like nothing I’ve ever felt before.  I was no longer going to hear her voice, I was no longer going to be able to hug her or kiss her.  I was no longer going to have a mom that was living.  This is something that you know will happen one day but you never know how it actually will affect you until it happens.

<caption for this photo:  I worked for awhile as an accountant at an advertising agency and got my friend a photographer a job there – I had my parents come in and she took some photos of them>

So I write this story today – my story – for all of you who have lost your mom.  It may only be a month, or it may be a year or it may be 20 years.  The time doesn’t matter – it hurts, and we miss our mom’s daily and on the anniversary of their death, and their birthday and our birthday and every holiday and all those big moments in our lives and all those small ones. WE MISS OUR MOMS!  They gave us life, they taught us, they fed us, they laughed with us and cried with us and yelled at us (lol) and no they weren’t prefect, but neither are we and it’s okay because at the end of the day we love our moms and our moms loved us!

<Photo on the left is my mom the Christmas after my dad passed when she was at the Memory Care Home, Photo on the right was Thanksgiving at my house with my mom, son, Elias and My Husband, Dan – also the same year my dad passed>

I share this story for all those out there that are feeling or have felt the same feelings and need a place to be heard, that need to be witnessed because you lost your mom.  I do not share it for others to feel sad for me, but for those that needed to hear it. And because it is part of my story, a story I have  waited a long time to share and now is the time I feel it.  My story starts here at the end…..

StencilGirl & Lindy’s bloghop

Good Morning friends:

Do you find it hard at times to stay creative when you just don’t have the time to really dedicate to making a “full” piece of art or art journal page?  Yeah me too.  Believe it or not, I do not always have hours to just sit and create in my studio even though I would love to.  So I have to find “creative” ways to stay creative.  I know that if I allow myself to just go days on end without touching art it leads to a creative block.

So today I’m going to show you a simple way to stay creative and keep those juices flowing.

One of the most enjoyable things to create (at least for me) are fun colorful backgrounds. I have found that when you are really pressed for time and you don’t want to pull all your paints out – wash brushes clean up pallets etc that Lindy’s Sprays are amazing to use and create luscious colorful backgrounds quickly.  Their colors add a lot of depth and dimension to your page as well as interesting visual texture and of course let’s not forget the shimmer.

In a matter of minutes you can create a bunch of gorgeous backgrounds for tags, art journal pages and more, that will be all ready to go.  Once you have a bunch of these in your stash you can take a few minutes here or there to add collage, stamps, journaling, stencils and more.

To take a peek into my process and see how I created this inspirational art card, click on the video below to enjoy some Lindy’s and StencilGirl inspiration today.

Don’t forget to leave a comment on my blog to be entered into the giveaway.  To do this click on the Title of my post – let the page reload and you should then see the comments section below.  Good Luck!  Giveaway details are below.

If your heart and soul are craving more than what most online art groups are all about – check out my post here I would love to invite you to  join my group the Empowered Creative Woman –

click here to join now. 

 

GIVEAWAY
One lucky winner will receive both a $25 Gift Certificate to Lindy’s Gang
AND a $25 Gift Certificate to StencilGirl Products!

Enter to win by leaving a comment below.
Then be sure to visit the other blogs in the hop and comment to win.

Carol Baxter
Sandee Setliff
Karen Gaunt
Louise Nelson
Sherry Canino  – You are here
Kerry Fellowes
Yulianna Efremova
Kasia Bogatko-Skoczypiec
Olga Bielska
Olga Ravenskaya

Click here to see the list of blog hop participates from Days April 18 & 19
The more blogs you comment on, the more chances you have to WIN!
One winner will be chosen at random from all blog comments!
(One comment per blog please.)

You have until Tuesday, April 24th at 11:59PM Central Time to leave your comments.
Winner will be announced on
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New Endeavors on the Horizon

Hi Beautiful Friends,

The past week has been a whirlwind of ups and downs for me.  The meditation / vision and enlightenment that happened earlier in the week was very powerful and full of intense feelings/emotions and healing.  But I didn’t truly get in enough self care for myself after that and so it left me feeling drained and a bit off and irritable as the week went on.  As we still have remodeling construction going on in our house it’s so very hard for me to get that “quite” time that I really need to just decompress.

Friday I had the house to myself to in the  morning I took some time to just “be”.  I drank my tea, sat on the couch with Luna snuggled in next to me and the pugs in their “spots” by me.  I lit a candle, dabbed on some of my favorite essential oils (of course Luna has to have some too because she loves the oils lol), put on some soft “Healing Harp” music, flicked on a little mood – lighting ( little lights I have next to the couch).  I allowed myself to just shut my eyes, breathe, let my thoughts wander, relax and enjoy the quite, the peacefulness of the morning.  I sipped my tea and watched the squirrels outside my window running about the trees.  The rain was just coming down every so gently and what should have been a gloomy rainy day was a day of peace and tranquility for me.  It was exactly what I needed to rejuvenate from the week.

We always talk about “doing the work” to heal, the process you go through, the steps that one needs to take, but we all but forget to talk about the self care that is so very much needed when doing this work.  We forget that just like when engaging in physical work we need to rest – with emotional work we need to rest and be gentle with ourselves as well.

I have learned for myself that if I do not get the time to do this self care and for me a lot of it really is just about having quiet time – peaceful time – time to reflect and just be, then I get very anxious, overwhelmed feeling, and a bit stressed out.

Once I was feeling more like myself I sat down at my table and decided to draw an oracle card from a new deck that I have been totally crushing on,  it’s called Earth Warriors Oracle by Alana Fairchild.

Rarely when I use my oracle cards or tarot cards to I ask a specific question, I almost always ask what message do you have for me today?  As I’m shuffling my deck, I think in my head:  allow me to draw a card that I need today, be the guidance and show me what I need to work on or whatever message that I might need to know.

So this was the card I draw:  Anka – Kin of the Red Hawk Tribe

Instantly upon seeing this card I thought WOW this is a powerful card.  The colors, the imagery, that hawk staring right at you.  I have not worked with this deck enough to know what the message was, and intuitively I just knew it was a powerful message but was not sure what it was going to entail.  So I went to the guide book to read the message this card had for me.

It totally blew me away as it was right inline with the things I have been putting into motion these past couple of days.  I have been going over in my head a vision I have had for probably over a year now.  Asking the Universe to help me bring it to fruition.

My Vision…

I have been envisioning leading a gathering of women – coming together for more than just art – but for the community, for the support, for the healing that a gathering can provide.  So one of the steps that I recently took to move forward with this vision is signing up for a certification class called the “Art of Circle” this will guide me on how to hold Soul Women Circle Groups here locally.

And so a new endeavor is born…

I am planning to hold my first “Circle” sometime in May.  My Circle Gatherings will encompass art and rituals that you will then be able to use again on your own, there will art journaling, connecting with ourselves and each other.  We will support and uplift each other, we will learn how to connect again to our true-selves and use the 4 elements Earth, Wind, Water and Fire to heal and strengthen us on our journeys.  When our circle is complete you leave feeling full of life, love and support.  You will feel grounded and whole.  If this sounds like something your soul has been craving then fill out the form below to be notified when I launch my first Circle Event.

These gatherings will be small, intimate and open to a  limited number of participants.  To have exclusive access to join fill out the form above and you will be notified before my event goes live on my blog and social media.

And so I created a soul card for my new Endeavor – She is holding a sword and above her   the question Fear or Courage – as she looks below her with sword in hand the words purple power are there.  This week in the Empowered Creative Woman group   our Weekly Challenge was to create a piece of art using the color that you see yourself as.  I see myself as the color of a purplish – indigo and so created this card using those colors to express my new endeavor and these colors.  What I am undertaking is powerful – important – challenging and yet I feel so strongly that this is not only what I need but what the world needs right now, that I am choosing to use my “purple power” to move forward with courage.  I choose courage and I encourage you all to choose courage as well,  if you feel drawn to step out of your comfort zone, to connect and learn to live a more full life, come with me in this circle journey and embrace your life’s journey with me.

Here you can see what I glued on the back of my soul card

I would love to hear what you all feel is “your color” leave me a comment below and tell me.  Have an amazing day my friends!

xxoo – Sherry

My Journey Continues + New Video

Hi Friends,

So I had a really deep / strong awakening the other day.  It was so enlightening and so beautiful that I really wanted to share it here with all of you.

If you are not interested in reading about my journey you can scroll to the bottom where I have a fun creative video tutorial for all of you. 🙂

I am currently taking a class that helps you find and connect with your Animal Spirit Guides, in addition to working with my Spiritual mentor I have come to know that Swan, as I mentioned before is one of my Power Animals as well as Bunny.

Up until a couple days ago when I was working with my oracle cards I still didn’t know why either of my Spirit Animals were with me, what messages they might have for me or guidance they might give.

So when I was using my oracle cards and had a realization that the Swan was here to help me mourn my loss of innocence as a child and my loss of my childhood.  Growing up how I did, created a situation where I really lost my innocence very young. Below is the deck and the Swan Card from the Deck that I was using.  Until this moment I had not really a great connection with this deck, I loved the imagery but never really connected to the meaning written on the cards.

After my latest class in my Spirit Animal Journey I realized that Swan is here to protect me.   I went into to the meditation and actually was asking Bunny what message he had for me. It started out with visions of sitting on the grass when I was a child, it was sunny and the grass was soft and warm.  There were daisies all around and I worn a crown of daisies (not sure where that came from as I never have worn any flower crown), but I did used to pick daisies in the field by our house, they grew wild there and there are lots of them.  

Swan came up behind me and wrapped her wings around me as if in a hug from behind.  It was then with my eyes closed in meditation that the tears started to flow.  As I laid down on the grass Swan sat beside me and spoke to me. She said “I’ve always been here you just didn’t know it. I have been here protecting you since you were young. You have a special journey in this life to help others and I am here to be with you to protect you and so you are never alone”.  At this point tears were just pouring down my face. – now at this point even though all this is happening I’m still thinking “Bunny what is the message you have for me”

Swan continued to comfort me and even though I didn’t want to leave that spot we got up and went into the woods I sat on a log of a tree. Bunny showed up, he let me pet him.  I continued to ask the bunny what his message was for me. I did not get an answer, he just sat there looking at me.

The swan gave me a hug and then offered me a small branch,  she said you are someone who needs something physical to remind you I’m here when you need me. Take this, put it in your medicine pouch so you remember to call on me when you are in need. She hugged me good by and I begged her not to go.  

I allowed myself to cry healing tears when the journey was finished.  As I went about my day I hadn’t really thought much more about my experience as it’s been a hectic day.  As I was outside taking Luna to the bathroom I looked down and, right in my front yard was the branch that the Swan had given to me.  It doesn’t look like much but in my vision it was just like this with that little knot and most of the bark taken off it.

I never got the message I was looking for from Bunny but I suspect that Swan believed I’d had enough for one journey. 

I know to some this story may seem a bit far fetched but I kid you not this is just how it happened.  I took a few minutes to write it down after it happened so that I would remember the details.  I truly believe that if you open yourself up to the healing your heart and soul needs that it will come to you, even if it’s not exactly how you expect it.  I feel strongly on documenting my journey here and I cherish each and everyone of you who has decided to come along for the ride.  Having so many of you in my corner really feels amazing and I appreciate each and everyone of you!!!

Now for some creative fun

This video comes from a place in my heart that I feel strongly about.  So very many people do not want to write or draw in their art journals – lest they “ruin” them.  I’m here to tell you that you most certainly should be writing and drawing in your art journals.  Art journals are personal they are a piece of our own journey sometimes the journey is just in art and that’s ok but you should put your signature on it.  Write a quote, add some marks, create some doodles, you get the idea.  I am here to share with you a couple very simple line drawings that you can add to your art journals to give them that personal touch.

I hope you enjoy todays tutorial and if you did be sure to leave me a comment, subscribe to my channel and if you give this a try tag me on social media so I can see your beautiful artwork. 🙂

Look for another fun video next week on how to enhance your art journals.

Thanks for sharing your time with me today my friends!  Have an amazing evening!

xxoo – Sherry

Where the hell have I been? +New Video

Hi Friends,

I know I have been away from all of you for awhile now.  After getting sick in January things have been a bit hectic but even more so I have felt it really time for me to take sometime to myself.  During this time a lot has happened to me.  It has really been an intense time of grieving and healing for me.  I do still have a long way to go but many things have healed for me which has made me feel a bit lighter and happier.  I know that grieving is a process and I am trying to allow myself kindness, patience and love while I go through this process.

I am currently working on finding my animal spirit guides to help me though this process and to have beside me in my life.  I have taken on a Spiritual Mentor which has been such an eye opening experience and so very helpful to me on this journey.  My heart has called for me to take this journey to heal, not just current wounds but many from the past as well.  And while doing all of this “internal” work is not glorious and beautiful the end result has been a happier more peaceful life.

The swan is one of my spirit animals.  On a chilly afternoon walking at the park with Luna I saw one of the swans that I usually only see in the fall, out there swimming in the lake

I have also had such a strong pull to create.  I have been creating from my heart and what it desires and craves.  I realized that although I enjoyed my time on various creative teams it was not allowing me to create for me, to create because my heart and soul are yearning for it, create for none other than the pleasure or to get my feelings & emotions down on paper.  This year I have choose not to re-sign up for the teams that I was on or to try out for any new teams.  This year I will be strictly creating what comes from my heart.

I created a bunch of these soul cards made with magazine snippets and a bit of watercolor and ink

I was thinking of creating a youtube video on how I created my soul cards – let me know in the comments if this is something that you would be interested in seeing a tutorial on. 🙂

Some of my art work created during my spiritual journey:  Earth Goddess, Feather, Spirit Owl and Spirit Deer.  The owl and the Goddess came from a class with Micki Wilde, although if you go back and look at her samples mine are quite different as I like to create my own take on my paintings even if it’s coming from a class.

Along with Animal Spirit Guides I have been learning to work with the Goddesses as well.  Below I created this art tag of Kali – it was inspired by a Goddess Deck that I own.  She is the destroyer of all things that are no longer serving you.  She is strong and bad ass and doesn’t take any crap from anyone.  She is someone I need in my corner as I’m not all that great at times at standing up for myself.  She has been walking with me on this journey and given me strength when I feel weak.

Below meet the Goddess of Darkness.  She is my latest work and right now the one I am most in love with and drawn to.  It took me a couple weeks to finish her.  She appeared to me in a dream.  At the time I started to create her I was not sure who she was, as she slowly unfolded and I finished her I then realized that She was the Goddess of Darkness.  She is a healer of the darkness inside of you.  She will be your strength when you feel that the darkness may swallow you up.  It is so amazing to me that when you open  yourself up to this intuitive nature and allow the light in that there are so many ways the universe has to offer you strength and guidance.

There was a period of time in the middle of last year that I thought the darkness might swallow me up.  I felt it slowly creeping up inside of me consuming me a little bit at at time. The Goddess of Darkness has come to pull me out of the darkness and has shined her light on my heart and is helping me restore myself back to the loving person I have always been.  For that I am forever grateful!

I realize this was quite a deep post but one thing I have to always be is honest to myself and to all of you.  My art comes from my heart and I may not always be on the same journey year after year but one thing with remain constant with me and that is my integrity and honesty and my belief that art heals and brings people into your life that you need.

I do have a video I created for some fun inspiration that I wanted to share with all of you.  This video will show you how I used some ephemera in my stash from Tiare Smith Designs to create this 2 page art journal spread.

Hope you all enjoy and thank you dear friends for sharing you time with me today!! xxoo – Sherry

 

What’s In your heart?

Hi Friends,

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what’s in my heart.  It’s been awhile since I did a post on what’s in your heart and I think with the New Year underway it’s time.  I have been pondering how we put so much emphasis on the New Year and not only do we feel it’s a fresh start but we feel that just because we have changed the calendar that it will actually change our lives.

Well yes in fact our lives are constantly changing – as a matter of fact your life will have changed from the time you started reading this post to the end, but that is inevitable – The Change that just naturally takes place.  But what about change that takes place because we take action???  Now that’s something to ponder.

 

What if this year instead of just hoping that the change of the calendar will make things better or more the way that we want – what if we were do put things into action that will cause change – change that we want for your life.

That’s exactly what I have been doing.  At the end of last year I thought back about the year and all of the things that I “did”.  And I did A LOT.  But is that what life is really about?  All the doing?  Is all the doing really living?  These are questions only you can answer for yourself and what you feel in your heart.

For me, all the doing was fine, but it was more of a coping mechanism that I used to channel the energy that I had from hurt and pain into something productive.  Not because I had to but because I needed to.  It was a means to and end and for the time being it worked and it got me through.  But if I’m being honest with myself I really don’t care to live that way.  I much prefer to select projects that have heartfelt meaning to me pour more of myself into them and simply do more of less.  I know I talked about this earlier on but I have been – taking action on these things.  So the first thing I decided to do for me was take an online class called Pull Pen Paint.  I saw this class advertised last year and because I already had so much “doing” going on I couldn’t spare the time to take it.  This year I vowed to make the time for myself to take some classes that Inspire me and allow me to grow as a person and an artist.  This class is based around Oracle and Tarot cards and is very intuitive.  It’s not about learning art techniques or even how to paint, draw or do art in a specific form it’s more about growing your inner self and intuition as well as using art and journaling along the way to express yourself using the Oracle and Tarot Cards.  I already have learned so much about myself and I know I will continue to learn more – and I am proud of putting my needs out there and jumping in feet first into something I needed.

Below are a couple photos of some art journal pages that I created during my working with the tarot and oracle cards in this class.

This art journal page came about when studying my shadow card which is the Tower.  You can read the quote that I have written on this page on my instagram post here

This spread is about the Star card which is my card for the year.  You can read more on this here

I have been also working on a special project that is near and dear to my heart and hope to be able to share in the next couple of weeks.  I am hoping to have it ready for release in the next week or so – I thought I would have it sooner but I continue to add little bits and tweak it.  I want it to be just right I know that you will all love it.

So now I bring the question to all of you my friends – what’s in your heart for the New Year?  What do you feel you need more of?  What do you feel you need less of?  And what actions will take to create the change you are looking for?

Thank you my friends for sharing your time with me today!  I am a bit late in getting out January’s newsletter it will be going out later this week with your free monthly download.

Don’t forget there is still time to sign up for the BadAss Art Journal Workshop we start on February 5th so be sure to check out all the details and get signed up here .

Have an amazing evening my friends !!

A little Luna Puppy love for all of you!!! xxoo – Sherry

 

StencilGirl & Inspiration Deck Blog Hop

Good Morning Friends today I have a quick tutorial for you on how I used the Mixed Media Inspiration Deck created by Kiala Givehand as a prompt to get me started in my art journal.

Starting out with just shuffling my cards and then I selected one at random

I decided to start out with 2 pages in my art journal that I really didn’t like it had kinda just been for doodling and so I never did anything with the pages. And these are the paints I used for this art journal spread

love the way it looks over the text papers!!

I needed to come up with a quote for my page.  When I created my girl I was thinking of how I can empower myself this year, thinking of how I want to be emulating that in my art.  So I came up with this quote that I thought fit perfect and I typed it & printed it out then cut it out and glued it to my page.  Added some watercolor drips under it to tie it into my page.

Thank you Kiala for allowing us to have so much fun with your Empowerment Deck!!  Now on to some giveaway fun!

 Giveaway Details

One lucky winner will receive both a $25 Gift Certificate to StencilGirl Products
AND a Mixed Media Inspiration Deck™ Empowerment Edition
 !

Just leave a comment here on my blog for a chance to win then hop on over to the blogs list below and leave a comment for more chances to win!

If you are looking for an amazing class to kick start your creativity this year.  Check out the BadAss Art Journal Workshop

This workshop is filled with technique videos to get you pumped up and creating in your art journal in 2018.  Check out the link here to see all the amazing teachers in this years workshop so many talented artist all teaching in one workshop that you will have life time access to!  Use Coupon Code:  SOBADASS to get $10 off but hurry it goes up to regular price after the 13th!

Visit these blogs for more Inspiration Deck tutorials and leave a comment for more chances to win the StencilGirl Give Away.
January 11
Mary C. Nasser

Sherry Canino (you are here)

Louise Nelson

Torrie Gass

January 10
Mary Beth Shaw

Kiala Givehand

Tina Walker

Belen Sotelo
The more blogs you comment on, the more chances you have to WIN!
(One comment per blog please.)

You have until Sunday, January 14th at 11:59PM Central Time to leave your comments.

Winner will be announced on
StencilGirl’s Facebook page on Monday, January 15th.

Stencils Used in this art journal spread:  Starlight Mini by Leslie Riley and Journal Text Me #4 by Pam Carriker.

Have a fabulous day my friends and thanks for hanging with me today it mean so much!!

xxoo – Sherry

Merry Christmas My Friends

Hello my dear friends and Happy Holidays to all of you.

With Christmas just a little more than a day away I wanted to just pop in and share sometime with all of you.  I have been really just taking time to be in the present and have hardly been on social media or on my blog for the past few weeks.  I have to say that it has been really nice.

I’ve had a chance to really spend some quality time with my husband which you all know I truly adore and we both have been taking it a bit easy.

Our morning routine after getting the pugs and frenchie all fed consists of sitting on our sun porch which is all decked out for the holidays with 2 small trees and a couple special holiday sets – one is a skating rink where the people move around on the “ice” and the little village lights up, the other is a little village scene with a Christmas tree and Santa and his reindeer that move and light up.  We sit sip our coffee, chat and just enjoy each others company.  We talk about past Christmases and holidays from our childhood.  We have been chatting about the new year and things we hope to do and trips we hope to take.  This time has been so heartfelt and enjoyable and if you are allotted the chance to take some time to just enjoy life and your loved ones I highly recommend it.

That’s not to say that I haven’t missed all of you and my art, I truly have, but I have needed this time to just be.

I have so many things that I want to do and share with all of you in this up coming year.  I need this time to really hone in on my plans and figure out a real course of action.

I want to give a shout out and HUGE CONGRATS to the winner of the free spot in the BadAss Art Journal Workshop – Janis Graham!  I want to thank everyone that took the time to stop by and leave a comment and enter the giveaway!

This is truly going to be a wonderful workshop – with so many talented artists if you are looking for that one workshop that you can keep going back to this would be it.  You can check out all the details as well as sign up here .

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