Where the hell have I been? +New Video

Hi Friends,

I know I have been away from all of you for awhile now.  After getting sick in January things have been a bit hectic but even more so I have felt it really time for me to take sometime to myself.  During this time a lot has happened to me.  It has really been an intense time of grieving and healing for me.  I do still have a long way to go but many things have healed for me which has made me feel a bit lighter and happier.  I know that grieving is a process and I am trying to allow myself kindness, patience and love while I go through this process.

I am currently working on finding my animal spirit guides to help me though this process and to have beside me in my life.  I have taken on a Spiritual Mentor which has been such an eye opening experience and so very helpful to me on this journey.  My heart has called for me to take this journey to heal, not just current wounds but many from the past as well.  And while doing all of this “internal” work is not glorious and beautiful the end result has been a happier more peaceful life.

The swan is one of my spirit animals.  On a chilly afternoon walking at the park with Luna I saw one of the swans that I usually only see in the fall, out there swimming in the lake

I have also had such a strong pull to create.  I have been creating from my heart and what it desires and craves.  I realized that although I enjoyed my time on various creative teams it was not allowing me to create for me, to create because my heart and soul are yearning for it, create for none other than the pleasure or to get my feelings & emotions down on paper.  This year I have choose not to re-sign up for the teams that I was on or to try out for any new teams.  This year I will be strictly creating what comes from my heart.

I created a bunch of these soul cards made with magazine snippets and a bit of watercolor and ink

I was thinking of creating a youtube video on how I created my soul cards – let me know in the comments if this is something that you would be interested in seeing a tutorial on. 🙂

Some of my art work created during my spiritual journey:  Earth Goddess, Feather, Spirit Owl and Spirit Deer.  The owl and the Goddess came from a class with Micki Wilde, although if you go back and look at her samples mine are quite different as I like to create my own take on my paintings even if it’s coming from a class.

Along with Animal Spirit Guides I have been learning to work with the Goddesses as well.  Below I created this art tag of Kali – it was inspired by a Goddess Deck that I own.  She is the destroyer of all things that are no longer serving you.  She is strong and bad ass and doesn’t take any crap from anyone.  She is someone I need in my corner as I’m not all that great at times at standing up for myself.  She has been walking with me on this journey and given me strength when I feel weak.

Below meet the Goddess of Darkness.  She is my latest work and right now the one I am most in love with and drawn to.  It took me a couple weeks to finish her.  She appeared to me in a dream.  At the time I started to create her I was not sure who she was, as she slowly unfolded and I finished her I then realized that She was the Goddess of Darkness.  She is a healer of the darkness inside of you.  She will be your strength when you feel that the darkness may swallow you up.  It is so amazing to me that when you open  yourself up to this intuitive nature and allow the light in that there are so many ways the universe has to offer you strength and guidance.

There was a period of time in the middle of last year that I thought the darkness might swallow me up.  I felt it slowly creeping up inside of me consuming me a little bit at at time. The Goddess of Darkness has come to pull me out of the darkness and has shined her light on my heart and is helping me restore myself back to the loving person I have always been.  For that I am forever grateful!

I realize this was quite a deep post but one thing I have to always be is honest to myself and to all of you.  My art comes from my heart and I may not always be on the same journey year after year but one thing with remain constant with me and that is my integrity and honesty and my belief that art heals and brings people into your life that you need.

I do have a video I created for some fun inspiration that I wanted to share with all of you.  This video will show you how I used some ephemera in my stash from Tiare Smith Designs to create this 2 page art journal spread.

Hope you all enjoy and thank you dear friends for sharing you time with me today!! xxoo – Sherry


20 thoughts on “Where the hell have I been? +New Video

  1. Sherry-I was touched by your description of the emotional year you had last year. I hope your life is going a little smoother now. Your art will definitely help. I have shared the darkness at times too. Grieving takes way longer than I ever imagined. There have been many times when I just couldn’t get going and I couldn’t get myself out of the funk I was in. It’s like being in quicksand. But art is the single most important thing that has been my salvation. Keep on doing what you’re doing and I sincerely hope you will feel better, lighter and more like yourself soon. If I can help in any way, please let me know. I think it’s great how you have shared your art with all of us. I wish you the best and know that I am thinking of you lots.

    1. Oh Karen thank you for sharing with me. Yes I know my dear friend that you have been through so much as well. I’m sure if we really looked in everyones ‘backyard” that we would see we have all been through hard times and hurt and paint – none being less important or less hurtful than another. And I really appreciate your kind words of love and support it means so much more than you know !! xxoo

    1. Awww Susan thank you so very much dear friend for your support and loving comments and taking time to stop by. It really means so much to me! I do think I’m going to do a video on the soul cards they are so fun to make as well as very special to use as you create them so they speak to you! xxoo

  2. Such a beautiful video, did you see the heart? So glad you are able yo use your art to heal. Wish I could give you a great big hug my friend. Working the dark is so good for one. Accepting the messages is a gift. Dee

    1. Awww Thank you so very much Dee and I wish we could have coffee and hug and chat. I miss you my sweet friend thank you for always popping and supporting me it truly means so much to me!! xxoo

  3. Hi Sherry..Wow you are really on a transformational path..Im so happy youll be creating just for you..the pleasure of creating without constraints..Sending hugs and love your way..!So glad to know you..!

    1. Aww thank you so much Robin. You have been such a huge inspiration to me and so supportive it’s truly meant to very much. Xxoo 😘😘😘

  4. It is so incredibly powerful to hear a soul speaking and such a sincere privilege to enter that space to listen, learn, and then quietly whisper to you how magical you really are. You really are. May your transformative walk and creative passion lock hands tightly and give you the strength you need to heal. xoxo

    1. Awww Nancy thank you so very much for such a heartfelt message, this really means so very much to me. I’m so glad that we had a chance to meet in person !! Xxoo😘😘

  5. Sherry, I just had to acknowledge the beautiful “letter” you shared with all of us. I’m glad to know that you’re feeling better after being sick in January. I firmly believe that when the “universe” is trying to get our attention, things happen in our lives to slow us down, to take “stock” of what’s really important, and “urge” us to either change course while “righting” the ship, or just “be”……..to breathe, to enjoy all of the beauty that surrounds us every day; the form or being isn’t necessarily important……..just being “aware” or “present” (however you choose to word it) and looking inward for a while, can be very “medicinal”………..our “batteries” need to be re-charged……we are definitely NOT the Energizer Bunny! I’m sending much love and many prayers in the hope that whatever you need or want right now will appear in your life very soon. In the meantime, please know how many people care, and wish you all things beautiful. With my love and concern, Carole from Chicago xox

    1. Awww thank you so very much Carole you are such a sweetheart and mean so very much to me. Thank you for always taking time out to leave me some love it truly is a gift you give me each time. I’m blessed to have you in my life !! Xxoo ❤️❤️❤️😘

  6. Good Morning dear one…….I have always enjoyed your quiet & calm demeanor in your videos & blogs–along with your art. When I opened my Mac this morning with coffee in hand–I was joyful to see an email from YOU !!! Have I missed hearing from you, of course, but I also understand the need to step back and reassess from time to time…..I, too have had an unexpected past year. A move to another state to “help out” my daughter/son-in-law because of her lupus. Health & well being is everything and so I totally understand anything you have experienced yourself. My art has brought her joy with videos and combined projects we do together–it is healing beyond words. And so this morning when I read YOUR very personal & tender words I could and did experience how sadness can overtake one’s life. Oooops, it seems I wrote a bit too much about my/our own sadness and didn’t mean to do that–but be assured that far away in Georgia, 2 gals are thinking & praying for comfort and peace in YOUR life too !! We both enjoyed your lil video of spontaneous 2 page journaling……..we will both try it later today. Sending warm hugs and come back soon, because everyone misses a good friend…….((((((( HUGS ))))))))) Joan

    1. Oh Joan please do not ever apologize for sharing yourself with me. Even if it’s sadness. It is honestly what I truly love about you and others who support me. I can’t even imagine what you must be going through- it’s difficult when our child (even if an adult ) is not well and we can’t just make it better. You are such a beautiful strong woman and I cherish you! Thank you for your loving comments about my art and videos it’s so very uplifting for me to hear that people enjoy them. It’s why I do what I do!! Lots of love back to you and your daughter and son in law. I will be sending love and light to all of you. Please share your art with me if you get time to try out my video idea I’d love to see what you create ❤️❤️❤️😘😘😘

  7. Sherry — I just read through all of the wonderful responses that people have sent and I’m not sure that I can say more or in a different way! Just know that we are all here, on your team and hoping for more healing and, of course, more art and writing which will help to move you along through this journey! P. S. I don’t think that I know of anyone else who has a swan as a spirit animal — she is calm and smooth on the surface and paddling like hell under the water. Give her an extra wave the next time you see her!

    1. Aww Karyl thank you so very much, what a sweet heartfelt comment you left me. That means so very much!! I adore you my sweet friend xxoo

  8. Sherry, I was touched by your post. Sending you hugs and inner strength. Be well my friend. And I would love to see a video.

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