Words can’t express….

Hello my dear friends,

While I had a fabulous beautiful post planned for today, with my heart so heavy I feel I must wait to share it and instead share with all of you what is in my heart right now.

Last night with very little warning I had to put the pug love of my life to rest.I got Pebbles when she was just a tiny puppy about 6 weeks old.  My son who is now 24 was just 9 at the time.  She was this teeny tiny scared little pug.  She was shaking and when I held her she nestled her head into my neck and went to sleep and stopped shaking.  It was then that I new I had to have her.

I was a single mom at the time and so she slept with me in my bed.  She loved to be snuggled, held and have my arms wrapped around her under the covers.  She was what I needed and I was what she needed.  I took her everywhere with me, I carried her like a baby she would rest her head on my shoulder and was so content to be in my arms.  When I shopped I could carry her like that with on hand and shop as if she were a baby because she actually held onto me with her paws.  When someone else would try to take her from me to hold her she would pull back towards me and grip on with her paws to my shoulder and make this noise like a kid if anyone took her out of my arms.  She was 110% my baby.

Yesterday morning when I got her up she was not acting herself and as the day went on she got progressively worse.  By evening when I took her out she could barely walk.

We brought her to the vets and after blood tests, X-rays and an ultrasound, they found that she had a tumor in her stomach that had started to bleed.  It was inoperable, even if she was strong enough to operate on, which she wasn’t because it was also attached to her kidneys and well she couldn’t live without at least one kidney.

She always had these crazy sleeping habits – sleeping with her head hanging out of her beds lol.  She was such a silly pug.

By 10pm last night we made the decision to let her go.  I held her for almost 2 hours at the vet crying, hugging her, loving her one final time.  Letting her go and saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do.  But she was fading in my arms, too weak to even hold her head up.  I held her while she took her last breath and loved her to her last moment on this earth with me.  She was almost 16 yrs old and I know I have been blessed to have her in my heart and my life.  But tonight for one night I am having a moment of sadness for myself.  A moment of why me, why did I have to lose her when I’ve had so much lost in the past year and a half.

She was my shadow and followed me around the house with every step I took.  So everywhere I look I see her missing.

My other 2 pugs are also lost without her.  She was the leader of the pack and they have been wandering around the house all day at a loss of what to do.

This is how Pebbles always was with my Son, Elias.  Kissing him every second she could.  She would stretch her head up as far as she could to give him licks. lol

It’s been a hard couple days for me and my family.  It’s just been so shocking because she just never showed any signs of being sick.

I will be back tomorrow with more on our Empowerment cards and some inspiration for them.  As well as sharing what I’m doing and the ones I’ve created.

But tonight, tonight I just need to hug my other pugs and cry for a bit, because my home will not be the same with out my Pebbles.

xxoo – Sherry

30 thoughts on “Words can’t express….

  1. Dearest Sherry I am so so sorry to hear if your sad loss. Pets are part of our family and it was very clear to see how loved your little pug was. Pebbles had a blanket of love around her and none of us can ask for more from life. I am pulling a blanket of love around you and your family Sherry. Rest now and think of the happy times with Pebbles. She is at peace now, sadly it is the ones who are left who suffer. Thinking of you all and sending bucketfuls of love.
    Dorothy 🙋🏻😘❤️

    1. Dorothy thank you so very much for your loving words. I needed them. You are such a gem to me. I am so blessed to have you in my life. It maybe online but it’s extremely special to me and I’m so thankful for you. Sending lots of love back to you 😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️

    1. Oh Torsa thank you so very much. It’s such a blessing to have friends like you in my life. I am so glad that we met. Hugs back to you. ❤️❤️❤️😘😘

  2. Oh, Sherry, I am so sorry. What a wonderful life you gave to Pebbles and she, to you. May you feel peace for making a tough decision at the right time. Sending hugs and loving thoughts to you as you grieve. <3

  3. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I’m sure you can take only a little comfort in our words. Sixteen years of loving your little sweetie is a long time, and it will take time to heal. My thoughts and prayers are with you, my friend, grieve to your heart’s content! Hugs to you.

    1. Thank you so very much Catherine. Reading your caring and loving comment means a lot to me. Knowing people care is truly a blessing and I cherish that you took the time to stop by and share your kindness with me during this difficult time. Thank you!!!

  4. I know how awful you feel. It’s devastating to lose a fur baby, because they are our best friends and an integral part of our family. I wish I could give you a great big hug, but I will have to settle for sending virtual hugs instead.💔💕

    1. Oh Maura thank you so very much and I will take all the hugs I can get virtual or otherwise!! Pets are so unique in that they just give us that unconditional love that is like no other. She will be missed and in my heart forever that I know. She was a special girl to me it’s hard to imagine life without her. Thank you for taking time out to share your time with me and leave me some much needed love. I cherish you dear friend thank you!!❤️

  5. Sherry, I am so very sorry for your sad loss. My son and I lost our 15 yo snoodle last year after 12 years. and we miss him still, so I know how much it hurts. You are in my thoughts and prayers…..hugs, Marsha

    1. Oh Marsha I’m so very sorry for the loss of your baby as well. It’s never easy they become a part of us, a part of our families, of our daily lives and there is a hole when they are gone that’s for sure. I am going to turn to my art as it’s the only thing right now that seems to give me any peace and quotes my over active mind. Thank you so very much for taking the time to share with me and your loving and kind words they mean so much to me. Thank you dear friend !!

    1. Thank you so very much Lynne. Yes these little furry babies are even more of a part of my daily life since I’ve been working from home the past couple years. Still hard to even wrap my head around that she’s gone. I catch myself looking for her to check on her and such. thank you for taking time out to leave me a loving comment and sending me hugs it truly means more to me than you can imagine! You are a blessing dear friend !!❤️

  6. My dear little sis, I am so so sorry for your loss. I am in shock! What a terrible loss for You, Elias and Dan. Most people treat their dogs, like friends and family but you treated Pebbles like the Princess she was! She knew how much she was loved and cherished. I know she was one of your biggest comforts when you were grieving and to have to grieve for her is unthinkable. I’m glad to hear that you are taking some me time to remember the good times and the blessings you brought to each others lives. Our pets never let us down, they never say the wrong things, and they ALWAYS love us. I know this will be hard for you but you are strong and you will rise up from this and be even stronger and wiser for having been Pebbles Mom! I love you. You are always in my heart. Candy

    1. Thanks so much Candy, honestly I’m still in shock. It all happened so fast and I truly can’t believe she is gone. At almost 16 she still acted like a young dog. She never showed any signs of distress or anything. Pets just give that nonstop unconditional love it’s something that is truly a blessing! Thank you so much for your love and support it means so much to me, more than you probably know!! Love you!! ❤️

  7. SO sorry, Sherry. Words are pretty inadequate at a time like this.

    I can only hope that a place like “Rainbow Bridge” exists. In case you haven’t heard, it is a place just this side of heaven where our sweet animals go after they die. They are restored to health & play happily with other fur babies until they are reunited with us. If you haven’t heard of Rainbow Bridge, please find the poem online. If you have heard of it, please read it again. It is so heartwarming, so lovely.

    I hope your Pebbles is with my Murphy and Maddie until your joyous reunion (or until my joyous reunion with my “babies”). My sincere wish for you is that you cross Rainbow Bridge together someday…

    1. Oh Chris thank you so very much, oh yes our babies are certainly waiting for us at the Rainbow Bridge I just know it. I truly appreciate you taking the time to share with me and leave me such a loving comment it means so very much to me! You are a blessing dear friend ❤️

  8. hugs to you my on-line friend. lots and lots of hugs and then some more. for you and your family. glad you shared so I had to chance to send some hugs your way.

    1. Thank you so very much Theresa for taking the time to send me all this love and hugs, it means so very much to me. My heart is broken right now but knowing there are people like you out there who care just means the world to me. I’m so very blessed with all the people I have met online through my and and through owning my pugs. You are a blessing dear friend ❤️

    1. Oh thank you so very much dear friend and thank you for taking the time to leave me some love and comforting hugs and prayers it mean so very much to me!!❤️❤️

    1. Thank you so very much Patti. It has been hard that’s for sure. Not sure when things will quite feel “normal” again at home ❤️❤️

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